Of blessings and other things

While contemplating speaking to a friend about something a thought came to mind. Is it wrong to ask God for a specific blessing? There are several things that the Bible calls blessings, such as meekness, mercy, children, wisdom, etc. Is it wrong to ask for such things as these? Why would it be? And yet we often think we can obtain these things through our own power and will. Can we even breath without God's grace, without him giving us the blessing of health? I have watched several people die in my lifetime, actually been there as they drew their last breath. It gives me pause to watch such a sacred moment. No matter what anyone does, there is a time when every man draws his last breath. Are we really foolish enough to think we have any control over that? Am I foolish enough to think that I have any promise as to the length of my life? In that vein, am I foolish enough to think that if I have no power to save my life, have I power to make it a worthwhile life? Isn't it really all about giving glory to God? Of course it is. If my life is to give God glory in everything than I need His help and I need him to bless me. Even Jacob wrestled with God for a blessing. I am wrestling with God for a very specific blessing. Should I let go without it? That I can not answer, even as I weep.